Stop The World, I Want To Get Off.
July 17th, 2008 by trancejen
My sister is still missing, and she’s not with her boyfriend. I know this because he’s been calling me frantically every couple of hours to find out whether I’ve heard anything or whether she’s come back “home”.
She’s not at her previous residence, she’s not at her dad’s, and she’s not at her “baby-daddy’s”.
I’m really fucking worried at this point, and really angry that she hasn’t called. According to her last landlords she’s pulled this kind of thing before and I shouldn’t even bat an eye. Still, you don’t just take off with two young kids and not let anyone know where you’re going.
Maybe she has another boyfriend. Who the fuck knows. I just know that I’m tired, irritated, and worried.
In other news, I had a seizure during physical therapy today, so they are kicking me out. Apparently I pose a liability, or at least the idea of me busting my head open on one of their machines poses a liability. So that’s that. Irritating.
In still other news, I went to have my heart monitor read and they found all sorts of fun stuff, lots of tachycardia, and actual heart stoppage. This means I now have to go get it read every month instead of every three months, and I have to start seeing the cardiologist regularly again, because there are problems. Heartfuck is back. Irritating.
And in other news, I went to the eye doctor last week with what I thought was a painful infection and was told was really bad dry eye and corneal abrasions. This is the good eye I’m talking about, the eye that can actually see. I need this eye. I took the medicine provided and went back this week to see how I’d progressed only to find out that it hasn’t gotten any better. The doctor said I have striations all over my cornea and need to see a corneal specialist. This scares me more than I can say. Plus, I can’t wear a contact lens any more, possibly ever. Fuck fuck fuck.
Top this off with frequent passing out/seizures and you have one fuck of a week, kids. I’m just drained. I’m just really fucking tired. I just really want to climb into bed and not come out, ever.
Still, I am hosting kids in the pool this afternoon, and I must be on. Still, I am taking kids to Six Flags Monday and I have to REALLY be on. I have a birthday party to plan. A camping trip. A weekend trip to Wisconsin Dells. I am determined that my kid have fun this summer.
I hope I can hack it.
Happy Thursday. Project Runway is BACK. At least that makes me happy.
Lina wrote on 07/17/08 at 1:58 pm :
I can’t believe she’s doing this to you… it’s really heartless and selfish of her, especially considering all you’re going through anyway. I hope for her sake she’s okay and everything, but reading this just makes me mad. How can someone feel okay about doing things like that??
Bozoette Mary wrote on 07/17/08 at 7:16 pm :
Oh hon. I’m sorry.
goatbarnwitch wrote on 07/17/08 at 8:53 pm :
I’m so sorry you are going through more $#!&*… I hope you can have fun with the kiddo. No contact lens?!?!!
John in Phoenix wrote on 07/17/08 at 11:08 pm :
If I may be so bold as to add one additional comment to all of this crap that you are currently going through Jen (Ungrateful woman, your sister although I do hope that she and the KIDS *poor little tykes* are all OK).
GODDAMMIT to HELL!
We are all in your corner with ya Jen. Just ask if you need anything that any of us might be able to assist you with and I know that I/We will do our damndest to make it so. It sounds like you have one hell of a schedule of things lined up in the immediate future though to hopefully add some positive distraction in the midst of the chaos.
Giving you a great big hug and a sloppy internet kiss on the cheek my friend.
John in Phoenix
Mo wrote on 07/18/08 at 12:59 pm :
I am so sorry to hear that she is doing this…that’s really selfish of her!
Good luck with the health woes!
lilacorchid wrote on 07/18/08 at 1:57 pm :
Sorry to hear it. My sister pissed off for a year, and it was a tough one. I hope your sister’s children are okay, and I really feel for your family. My sister had mental health issues and was under the “care” of a very abusive, controlling, money grubbing boyfriend at the time.
It will seem like forever, but your sister will eventually make contact.
CAMS wrote on 07/18/08 at 8:17 pm :
That sucks. Sorry about all the shit you are going through.
As far as the cornea nonsense, I have had corneal problems for years. I would get corneal ulcers all the time and I too had to go see a corneal specialist. They told me I would/may never wear contacts again but after I saw the specialist, he gave me some nifty drops and antibiotics and all was well. Here’s hoping the same for you eye-wise.
Hang in there!
Moxie wrote on 07/19/08 at 2:23 pm :
Thankyajesus Project Runway is back. That first episode this week I spent wondering if Heidi Klum’s rooftop dress was gonna fly up with a good puff ‘o’ wind and show the world her hoo-ha. Then I spent the rest of the show hating on the Christian wannabe with his tired “girlicious” and outfit that looked like someone from Crate and Barrel took a crap in a nappy.
Michelle D wrote on 07/22/08 at 10:03 am :
Any updates yet? I have an aunt that behaves the same way, and she’s 48. I’d like to say your sister will change her ways for the good of her youngin’s but it probably won’t happen.
Amanda wrote on 07/25/08 at 10:23 am :
Jen,
Haven’t heard from you in a while now… I hope you and J-man are okay. At least your sister has a boyfriend that cares about her and the kid’s well being somewhat. She will turn up.
Be safe Jen
Prozac. wrote on 08/27/08 at 6:38 am :
Prozac….
Prozac menopause. Side effects of prozac. Prozac….